best competitors – female friendships in fashion

adoring,thinking — Danielle on April 12, 2011 at 11:08 am


June, 2007. Fashion friends.

When I was a six years old, I met one of my best, lifelong friends. We were both homeschooled. We both lived on farms with goats and chickens. We were both blonde. We both loved to draw and paint. We both loved to read and write. We both created elaborate, imaginary worlds to play in, both together and on our own.

Later we went to high school together. The transition into school life was a difficult one, and just as much as we were there for each other, we also compared ourselves against each other. We were both bright kids who got high marks – hers were higher, mostly because she tried harder while I tended to drift. Adolescence had not treated us equally – she became petite and feminine and desirable with long blonde hair – and I was skinny and awkward with unflattering glasses and bad haircuts. She had better boyfriends and better clothes than I did. Her artwork was more impressive than mine, and she won more praise. Mostly, those things didn’t matter so much. I loved having an intellectual and creative equal-or-better, someone who was talented and worked hard and encouraged me to do the same, someone who made me feel not so alone in a rural school environment where I very clearly knew I didn’t belong. We always made things together, just like we did when we were kids – constantly drawing, school projects, sharing clothes, she was, and is, someone who is always there for me.

The way I love her has always been mixed up with traces of envy. All the things we had in common just made it seem unfair that I wasn’t more like her.

In a way I didn’t expect, this friendship set the tone for my path in fashion. Fashion school is a unique, almost wholly female environment. It took me a while to develop friendships, and what I discovered is that I was still drawn to the girls at the top of the class. I really responded to the competitive aspect fashion school – somehow the camaraderie that was all mixed up with ambition was, to me, the best kind. I could clearly identify the girls whose talents matched or outmatched my own, and I truly cherished the challenge of beating them, or even being beaten by them, in a creative field that totally fascinates me.

After fashion school I found my friends through blogging. Again I found myself drawn to the friends who were my equals or better. Fashion bloggers are incredibly supportive, generous people, which balances out the weirdly measurable aspect of this arena. Hits, event invites, swag, money, collaborations, seat assignments – you are constantly susceptible to comparing yourselves against one another with these very tangible markers of success. I’m not going to lie – as fiercely as I love my fashion blog friends, at the same time I am racing against them. As we cheer on and support each other’s accomplishments, we are constantly raising the bar on our own efforts.

In fashion, there is no room for those who are not ambitious and competitive. Sometimes people ask me if fashion school is stressful – my answer is that any fashion school that isn’t hard isn’t worth it. This is not finishing school for princesses; this is a highly creative, difficult industry that will challenge you at every step. Everyone brings their own arsenal of advantages and adversities, but the one thing we all have in common is that we want to be here so much we’re willing to sacrifice the easier options we could have chosen. Your fashion friends will inevitably share your obsessions and your ambitions.

The general consensus is that envy is a bad thing, and I’m not going to disagree that it is a painful thing. Rather than assigning it value, I prefer to treat it as an unavoidable aspect of the human condition. Even more so, I think envy is essential to the fashion phenomenon. In the fashionmobile, desire is the internal combustion engine and envy is the fossil fuel. We are not in the business of making clothes; we are in the business of creating desire. Envy is just the other side of the coin. I don’t think we can ever eliminate jealousy; but we can philosophically make peace with it, even use it as a force that drives us to be better. When I think of the most positive, encouraging collegial friendships I’ve been lucky to have, not a single one is untouched by a lingering sense of longing.

Perhaps in male-dominated industries the competition is clearer and there are sharper definitions between colleagues and friends. I think in fashion, the competition is incredibly nuanced because of a natural, feminine empathy, and on the flip side, passive female socialization. Regardless, I enjoy the challenge of complicated, competitive friendships. I love my fashion friends. I want to be like them. I think they are the most amazing girls in the world.

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    12 Comments »

    1. *tear*

      I love you Danielle.

      Comment by geekigirl — April 12 2011 @ 3:48 pm
    2. that is so sweet.

      and very true. i do believe that jealously (or even desire to be like the one(s) you admire) motivates you to do your best in hopes of sharing the same spotlight and receiving the same praise of those you look up to and aspire to be.

      Comment by tricia — April 12 2011 @ 5:24 pm
    3. I love this piece. Such an uplifting read. And true: the more water in the lake, all the boats rise together.
      You’re a class act.

      Comment by Karen — April 12 2011 @ 6:46 pm
    4. It’s actually proven that you can predict better success by surrounding yourself with people that are better than you, so long as the individual is confident enough, this will only make them strive harder! I hope to surround myself with people who are equal or better too in my future. :)

      Comment by Cristina Poon — April 12 2011 @ 6:59 pm
    5. Danielle, thanks for the open and honest blog post. There are times I too feel the same, we are always chasing and competiting with each other in one way or another in the fashion blogging community. I think what levels this out is we usually know when to stop looking and comparing ourselves to others and focus inward.

      We miss you tons back home!

      Comment by Kimberly — April 12 2011 @ 8:58 pm
    6. Lovely…
      hope Miss B gets to read this!
      it brought me back a few years

      Comment by patrice — April 13 2011 @ 12:15 am
    7. This was an amazing read! As a fashion student and as a woman, I completely agree with everything you said, especially in regards to the competition in schools and being “nuanced” as you so eloquently put it. Wonderful piece!

      Comment by Alex — April 13 2011 @ 3:38 am
    8. Couldn’t have said it better myself. A stark but loving and forgiving interpretation of fashion industry friendships. I think we are a loyal lot. Anyone that gets negative is immediately sussed and sometimes, I find, converted!

      I am needing your Doc Marten design – signed up for notification when they’re on sale!

      Lucy x

      Comment by The Fashion Recruit — April 13 2011 @ 11:03 am
    9. Thanks all for the comments, they’re great <3

      Comment by Danielle — April 13 2011 @ 1:28 pm
    10. ahhh this is all so true.
      I just finished uni last year and everything that’s happened to my classmates since – every job offer, every competition win, every internship – has made me so happy that people from my course are doing well but there’s always that hint of ‘god I wish that had happened to me!’
      I think it’s unavoidable. It’s funny how there’s always that thing about people outside the fashion world thinking it’s all glamorous and insiders knowing that it’s actually all hard work, but even working in fashion I always feel like my friend’s jobs and internships must be so much more glamorous than mine! they probably think the same about my job though.

      Comment by Ali — April 13 2011 @ 11:28 pm
    11. […] beings who will “get” you and care for you just as much as you care for them, who will inspire you and encourage you. That’s all that really matters. You won’t find them by watching TV. Here’s five […]

    12. Haha, reading this is some good medicine and makes me want to compete…though not in the fashion arena :) you have that squarely covered. You are a brilliantly inspiring woman, love you so much :)

      B

      Comment by Bronwyn — April 24 2011 @ 1:54 pm

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